Started to have a little bit of a melt down moment the other night. :( I've started going through my clothes so I can pack effeciently and have really started thinking about things and its really starting to hit me. I'm leaving in 2 months! That part doesn't affect me as much as when I count down the number of times I have left to see my siblings....and that's 1, the week of my brother's wedding. How crazy is that?!?! And then i started thinking about not getting to cuddle with Collins anymore and that makes me tear up because he has been with me from the very first day in my first apartment by myself. It's only been a year with him but he has been there to cuddle with me through alot of lonliness in Fargo. Also my sent out an email to my Aunts and Uncles and grandparents on her side telling them what was going on and she emailed me their responses....of course reading them made me cry. Everyone was so supportive!!! My Aunt Marcia said she had to wait a few days to respond because she felt like she was going to cry and needed to let it sink in. I just have always had a problem really understand how much people care about me. My grandma said that she thinkgs I'll look so cute in the Navy uniform hahaha. Oh grandma! Everyone's support makes me have confidence that I can really do this and be successful, but everyone's support also makes it harder to leave because i'm going to miss everyone! I just need to get through basic training and I know i'll be so much better! That's the part I'm most afraid of. Not because it's going to be hard but because it's going to be such a shock to me.
While I am going to miss the familiar....I can't wait for the new!!
On a happier note......I'm going to Minnesota State Fair on Monday with 2 of my best friends!!!! These two people have been there for me in every way someone can be there for you. I'm so excited that I get to see them and spend time with them and enjoy my last Minnesota State Fair! Oh i will miss the big pig with his big pig balls! hahahahaha I really want to find theme parks every where I go! I hope that anytime I'm in a new place and have a day off I can find a theme park near by and just ride the rides! I'm getting so ready to live somewhere other than North Dakota and have my family and friends visit me and we can experiance new things together!
Monday needs to come sooner!! Australian Potatos, Salt Water Taffy, Martha's Cookies, and Baby Farm Animals....HERE I COME!!!
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Thursday, August 12, 2010
And So it begins.....
Well I figured the best way to share my newest adventure was to start a blog. I think writing all my thoughts and feelings out will help me keep any stress or anxiety down and any excitement and happiness up. With my newest life changing decision the best way for me to share what's going on is to blog. :P
Well I am officially in the Navy. I enlisted 3 weeks ago and just had my first DEP (Delayed Entry Program) meeting last night. Its a monthly meeting to discuss expectations and worries we may have, work out a little bit and get tested on all the things we need to memorize. It's to help us prepare for basic training. Whenever I'm around my fellow recruits I get so motivated to leave and start this new journey but then I come home or head to work and this whole new life is put on the back burner. It's starting to get a little frustrating. I don't really like being inbetween being a civillian and a sailor. I'm ready to just get going and dive right in. People ask if I'm nervous or excited and it really depends on the day. One day I will be dreadfully nervous and wondering what I got myself into because i'm usually thinking about missing my family and friends. But then the next day I'm can be so pumped to go because my job is going to be awesome and I hope to see the world. I love to travel and try new things and this is going to be amazing. The waiting is starting to seem like the worst part.
Let's see...i only have about a month and a half left in Fargo!!! I'm tired of being here. While I've met some great people that I will truely miss, Fargo is just dreadfully boring. Let's not even talk about Fargo winters!! I will be moving out of my apartment at the very end of September and moving home for the month of October. I'll spend some time with my grandparents and friends (Krista, Ryan, Jess) down in Minneapolis and then my brother's wedding will be middle of October. Then shortly after I leave!! While each day feels like it takes forever, the next 3 months are going to fly by!!
Anchors Away!
Well I am officially in the Navy. I enlisted 3 weeks ago and just had my first DEP (Delayed Entry Program) meeting last night. Its a monthly meeting to discuss expectations and worries we may have, work out a little bit and get tested on all the things we need to memorize. It's to help us prepare for basic training. Whenever I'm around my fellow recruits I get so motivated to leave and start this new journey but then I come home or head to work and this whole new life is put on the back burner. It's starting to get a little frustrating. I don't really like being inbetween being a civillian and a sailor. I'm ready to just get going and dive right in. People ask if I'm nervous or excited and it really depends on the day. One day I will be dreadfully nervous and wondering what I got myself into because i'm usually thinking about missing my family and friends. But then the next day I'm can be so pumped to go because my job is going to be awesome and I hope to see the world. I love to travel and try new things and this is going to be amazing. The waiting is starting to seem like the worst part.
Let's see...i only have about a month and a half left in Fargo!!! I'm tired of being here. While I've met some great people that I will truely miss, Fargo is just dreadfully boring. Let's not even talk about Fargo winters!! I will be moving out of my apartment at the very end of September and moving home for the month of October. I'll spend some time with my grandparents and friends (Krista, Ryan, Jess) down in Minneapolis and then my brother's wedding will be middle of October. Then shortly after I leave!! While each day feels like it takes forever, the next 3 months are going to fly by!!
Anchors Away!
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